I looked at my blog today and saw the last entry mentioning something about happy holidays. Funny enough, I thought because not only has that message all but been forgotten but it looks like I have been taking a holiday from blogging as well… I apologize for the lack of posts but I have been so busy.
So, how has 2006 been for you so far?
For me, there have been all sorts of changes. I started off with visions of healthier eating after the abuse of my body for the past three months however, a slight iron deficiency kept me at a much lower energy level than usual. Nothing serious, really, however, it didn’t really help me feel better about the choices I made. I have been on the upswing since I started catching up and things appear to be going fine.
My dream of actually getting my space cleaned and in order has not been realized so I am aiming for the deadline of Lunar New Year. It looks like that is much more reasonable considering how busy I was over the holidays. I was beginning to believe that I would become one of those pensioner ladies that lives alone in a dark stained wood apartment with bookcase stuffed full of books and ornaments and labelled shoeboxes and that horrid velvety floral antique furniture in my old age. If I don’t get it done soon, I am afraid the habit will never go away. (One would never know from this but I really am a stickler for organization. I just sometimes get too distracted and busy to get to it right away.)
And while I haven’t started cleaning, I have been able to catch up on my correspondence.
I can remember saying once that I was single-handedly keeping Canada Post in business with the amount of snail mail I was sending. However, one additional thing keeping them going is that they hike the rates up every year. I don’t want to gripe about it because I have no problems providing the service levels remain high. However, it just seems to be getting worse. And the rates are scheduled to rise again next Monday.
I truly believe that letter-writing is an artform and I will continue to do my best to keep it alive. (I am not naïve enough to believe that I can pass it on to the next generation though…it appears that email has taken over…)
For those of you that I’ve told, I am making a concerted effort to be more positive about things and especially myself. I am pleasantly surprised that I am getting better at making negative thoughts disappear more quickly. There’s still a lot of work to do on this but I am getting there.
I got a letter from a friend yesterday who offered her thoughts and words of wisdom as well as pointing out a few of her insecurities. The funny thing is that with woman of our strength, there is a lot of self-doubt that people don’t see. All people doubt themselves, I have discovered so I should remember not to feel like I am alone. I guess one wonders what is “wrong” with themselves if the are still alone in their 30’s and 40’s. Yes, we could be “picky” or maybe we just don’t want to end up like our parents. Nevertheless, I guess sometimes being in a relationship isn’t all that perfect either. (I’d like to thank my friend for her words. They really put things into perspective.)
So, with that said, I am trying to be a positive human being. I think it’s going well so far!
And, I also feel much more positive in my decision to break free from habit. I have been meeting friends that I haven’t seen in a while and am reminded what wonderful individuals they are. I apologized to one the other day but she said that everyone goes through phases in their lives that go in different directions. And true friends can connect any time. I’ve even had time to start or evolve recent friendships. Everything is new, fresh and going in a very positive way.
My only dilemma with this is, if you meet someone you really like, when is it safe to push it to the next level. Is there a way to tell when that person isn’t just thinking about being your friend? I mean, how can you tell if someone wants to be more than friends? Should one just let it evolve or should they go for it? Why do we want to protect our feelings so much?
Yesterday, a married friend told me that she wished that humans were more like animals in that way. Animals pursue that which they are interested in while humans take the safer approach and wait for the signs. The problem is that I think that humans have lost touch with their intuitive, natural side a long time ago. (Remember the tsunami in Asia? People flocked to the beach when the tides went out so far and quickly and the animals fled).
Can anyone tell me where all of this insecurity comes from?
Having re-read this, I just wanted to say that with all the talk of insecurity and negativity, I am in no way feeling that way. It’s simply a new year and I have had lots of time to observe behaviour over the past little while. In many ways, my observations have made me see things in myself and to address things and make positive decisions.
In closing, I hope that Olivia, Audi, David and Robert received their postcards. I have heard from some of you and once again wanted to wish everyone a great 2006!
So, how has 2006 been for you so far?
For me, there have been all sorts of changes. I started off with visions of healthier eating after the abuse of my body for the past three months however, a slight iron deficiency kept me at a much lower energy level than usual. Nothing serious, really, however, it didn’t really help me feel better about the choices I made. I have been on the upswing since I started catching up and things appear to be going fine.
My dream of actually getting my space cleaned and in order has not been realized so I am aiming for the deadline of Lunar New Year. It looks like that is much more reasonable considering how busy I was over the holidays. I was beginning to believe that I would become one of those pensioner ladies that lives alone in a dark stained wood apartment with bookcase stuffed full of books and ornaments and labelled shoeboxes and that horrid velvety floral antique furniture in my old age. If I don’t get it done soon, I am afraid the habit will never go away. (One would never know from this but I really am a stickler for organization. I just sometimes get too distracted and busy to get to it right away.)
And while I haven’t started cleaning, I have been able to catch up on my correspondence.
I can remember saying once that I was single-handedly keeping Canada Post in business with the amount of snail mail I was sending. However, one additional thing keeping them going is that they hike the rates up every year. I don’t want to gripe about it because I have no problems providing the service levels remain high. However, it just seems to be getting worse. And the rates are scheduled to rise again next Monday.
I truly believe that letter-writing is an artform and I will continue to do my best to keep it alive. (I am not naïve enough to believe that I can pass it on to the next generation though…it appears that email has taken over…)
For those of you that I’ve told, I am making a concerted effort to be more positive about things and especially myself. I am pleasantly surprised that I am getting better at making negative thoughts disappear more quickly. There’s still a lot of work to do on this but I am getting there.
I got a letter from a friend yesterday who offered her thoughts and words of wisdom as well as pointing out a few of her insecurities. The funny thing is that with woman of our strength, there is a lot of self-doubt that people don’t see. All people doubt themselves, I have discovered so I should remember not to feel like I am alone. I guess one wonders what is “wrong” with themselves if the are still alone in their 30’s and 40’s. Yes, we could be “picky” or maybe we just don’t want to end up like our parents. Nevertheless, I guess sometimes being in a relationship isn’t all that perfect either. (I’d like to thank my friend for her words. They really put things into perspective.)
So, with that said, I am trying to be a positive human being. I think it’s going well so far!
And, I also feel much more positive in my decision to break free from habit. I have been meeting friends that I haven’t seen in a while and am reminded what wonderful individuals they are. I apologized to one the other day but she said that everyone goes through phases in their lives that go in different directions. And true friends can connect any time. I’ve even had time to start or evolve recent friendships. Everything is new, fresh and going in a very positive way.
My only dilemma with this is, if you meet someone you really like, when is it safe to push it to the next level. Is there a way to tell when that person isn’t just thinking about being your friend? I mean, how can you tell if someone wants to be more than friends? Should one just let it evolve or should they go for it? Why do we want to protect our feelings so much?
Yesterday, a married friend told me that she wished that humans were more like animals in that way. Animals pursue that which they are interested in while humans take the safer approach and wait for the signs. The problem is that I think that humans have lost touch with their intuitive, natural side a long time ago. (Remember the tsunami in Asia? People flocked to the beach when the tides went out so far and quickly and the animals fled).
Can anyone tell me where all of this insecurity comes from?
Having re-read this, I just wanted to say that with all the talk of insecurity and negativity, I am in no way feeling that way. It’s simply a new year and I have had lots of time to observe behaviour over the past little while. In many ways, my observations have made me see things in myself and to address things and make positive decisions.
In closing, I hope that Olivia, Audi, David and Robert received their postcards. I have heard from some of you and once again wanted to wish everyone a great 2006!
Take care everyone!
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